Let Down YOur Guard

The art of being a woman
The ability to make a man believe he can dominate
A slight thought of commitment
That we've yet to consummate
As we go through life we see
there is so much that we don't understand
How a girl can catch such strong feelings
For the LEAST expecting man
A plethora of heartbreak
Causing neglect & pain
What could usually be repressed
Can no longer be contained
I've been picking up the pieces
Of someone else's mess
I've come to the conclusion
That your different from the rest
I can usually hide it
But with u its just so hard
We have potential i can feel it
Baby just let down your guard
I know that you've been hurt
I feel your pain its true
But baby give us one shot
& i promise i won't hurt you
I'm no usually the one
To catch feelings sit & wait
But something about you
Puts me in a kind of vulnerable state
This is somewhat hard for me
Cause I'm not usually the one
TO sit & twiddle my thumbs
waiting on anyone
I don't usually say this
& I've played my last card
I could make it worth your while
If u just let down your guard

The Wait.

I smell him from across the room
& I can't help but smile
The wait to be in his embrace
Makes the pain all worthwhile
I never had a thing for him
The feeling was so abrupt
& as our lips continue to touch
I feel myself erupt
I'm collapsing in his arms
As his lips are parting mine
I'm longing to know how he feels
As I'm searching for a sign
The confusion & the rush
All together hurts so good
Caressing me in ways that
I never thought he would
Before I can prepare myself
Our tongues are intertwined
Bringing me to the ecstasy
that have longed to find
Explosions getting more intense
As I lose self control
I've had my fair share of game
But with him they broke the mold
I don't know how he does it
& honestly I don't care
But I don't wanna waste my time
Feeling something that's not there
& even though it kills me
To not know whats going on
It may not be the right thing
But neither does it feel wrong
I smell him from across the room
& I can't help but smile
The wait to be in his embrace
Makes the pain all worthwhile
So I'm gonna take my chances
& hope this all works out
Not gonna put in too much thought
To figure out what this shits about
& I hope i find out quickly
Hope that its not too late
Until that faithful moment
I'll just have to wait.

VOID. (Where The Journey Takes a Pause)

So here's the deal, I miss working, I'm so distracted. It's difficult for me to be concentrating on so much shit that's going on. So the title of this piece means ALOT to me...just because it's a recurring dream i keep having that refuses to go away...Unfortunately that dream is like flying around my ass right now...But i do feel like writing....but i have an incredible void that's like an erupting volcano.

Exert your talents, and distinguish yourself, and don't think of retiring from the world, until the world will be sorry that you retire.
Samuel Johnson

I DO exert my fucking talents! & i have distinguished myself and they WILL be sorry when I'm gone because there is NOBODY like me!

Gimmie some more time && I'll gather all my work && I promise.

You will NOT be sorry =]

Renamed.

LifeStyle

I am absolutely indifferent
I just don't care.
As for rules?
Non-Existent to me
I'm one of those people who lack a sense of moral responsibility
Therefore being defined as a sociopath
I'm dangerous & uncontrollable
Yea, I admit it 'cause I KNOW I'm reckless
I've made several mistakes
However I don't regret a thing
I'm committed to my husband,
Have been for quite some time
Don't tell me how to live my life,
I won't pay you any mind so don't waste your breath
Besides, I don't take direction too well...
Problems?
Well might I suggest you keep your distance
'Cause uh I'm like a drug
One hit of ME & you'll be crawling back for more

Mistakes (Needs Editing)

As I’m dragging the rusty blade across my pale skin
You come to mind…& I realize how happy I CAN be
Your one of the few things that can put a smile on my face
& as the blood trickles down my wrist I remember
That I DID serve a purpose…& that was to be with you
But it dawned on me…How can someone that isn’t happy
With themselves make anyone else happy
& then it didn’t matter…I didn’t need logic…or science
Just you & I realize it was all a huge
MISTAKE

As I’m dragging the rusty blade across my pale skin
My phone vibrates against my thigh… its you rescuing me
The 1st word out of your mouth are “I love you” & then
I remember its not worth it There’s a REASON
& I try to continue…But believe it or not, you have power
It’s only when your not around that I succumb to the
Calls of my deadly vice… but then you make me smile
& that’s when I realize it was all a huge
MISTAKE

We had a fight….
As I’m dragging the rusty blade across my pale skin
I lose control…I cut my chest, my hands, my legs
This time your not there to be my hero…to be my savior
To make me happy again… IT feels better than ever,
A punishment for having made you SO angry…
Something strange happens
The vibrations again…Its you….but its too late…
The damage is D O N E
&& Now that you’re back in my grasp…
Is when I realize that it was all a huge
MISTAKE

Now when we lay 2gether you don’t see my scars
They’ve gotten better…But I thought u should know
It was YOU that saved me almost every time…
& I’ve done some wrong things in my life
But if I ever lost you it wouldn’t take long
To realize that I must’ve made a huge
MISTAKE

Cries In The Night

Tracy
The rebel girl that doesn’t show her feelings
The one that is always being loud & obnoxious
The only time she’s surrounded by tranquility,
She thinks of him & lays her head on her pillow
Merely to bear the tears she has been hiding
Throughout the entire day
She cries in the night

Jake
The big jock, captain of the wrestling team
The one that displays the “perfect” image
He drives home in his shiny BMW
Gets to his room to find his mother drunk AGAIN
Trying to escape the madness he calls home
His mother finally falls asleep around 11 PM
HE throws himself into his bed
Merely to bear the tears he has been hiding
Since the second he walked into the house
He cries in the night

Bethany
The pretty girl, head of the spirit squad
She makes everyone love her
Walks home with her friends
& as they part ways on the corner
The fears build up in her stomach
She steps into the house
& goes to get something to drink
To find her stepfather waiting
HE attacks her…throwing her onto the counter
Ripping off her skirt & violating her
Her mom gets home so he stops
She runs upstairs & curls up on her bed
Merely to bear the tears she has been hiding
Since the moment her mother married him
She cries in the night

Eclipse
She is the dreamer, she sees it all
She reaches out to listen to the stories of the victims
But nothing…she calls out to them & they block it out
They don’t see her watching them
She feels their suffering
& it hurts that she can’t help
As she waits for someone to call to her
She too cries in the night

*||~Quotes~||*

1."Ok, I have one head, yet I sleep with 6 pillows & a teddy Bear the size of my torso & then a LITTLE pillow that I've hugged since I was a baby....wondering why? That's cool cuz I am too..."
-Eclipse

2."Old cuts throbbing at the mere sight of blood from fresh NEW cuts that are leaking like a broken faucet into an endless drain of bullshit"

-Eclipse

3."You wanna hate me?

Just lemme know, 'cause I'll give you a reason."
-Eclipse

4."The consequences of my stupidity are far worst than expected battery & torture, for the result & consequence of my stupidity result in a feeling of being incomplete...not knowing what ur gonna do next b/c you've lost what created a stable balance....& it is now G O N E."
-Eclipse

5."I see things around me, but I don't view the world with my eyes, for my eyes simply record the experience....My hands are what feels.....but when our hands touch....do we feel the same thing?"
-Eclipse

6."You are the shadow of darkness in my city of light"
-Eclipse

7."If I'm so wrong, Fix Me."
-Eclipse

8."Kiss my lips, throw me up against the wall, caress my outter thigh, pull up my leg, tell me you want it, & than take it"
-Eclipse

9."Jealousy is no longer an emotion that runs in my blood. I lie awake at night with a feeling of wrath merely wandering through my soul....looking for a way out"
-Eclipse

10."Slowly being attacked by the demon within...deeds done, She's gone...she's been possessed by the bittersweet calls of the beyond"
-Eclipse

11."Maybe JUST maybe, I'm a little less of a heartless bitch"
-Eclipse

12."The numbness that is within me leaves me in a starsruck daze staring at the nothingness that lies deep inside of me"
-Eclipse

13."A feeling of desperation surrounds me, I find myself lost in a battlefield....tryna figure a way out of the ongoing quarry between me & my thoughts."
-Eclipse

14."My words inhabit my body & experiences the physicality and the inner silence that becomes eloquent only in performance"
-Eclipse

15."Its our responsibilty as today's youth to accept the indisputable fact that the truth holds no lies"
-Eclipse

16."I'm an impatient bitch....If you want me to change my face, then you need 2 change ur ways...its just THAT simple"
-Eclipse

17."The intensity of the way I carry myself signifies the complexity of the way that I think....Open minds are like blank books, anything can happen"
- Eclipse


Each quote will Serve as an entry...