Mistakes (Needs Editing)

As I’m dragging the rusty blade across my pale skin
You come to mind…& I realize how happy I CAN be
Your one of the few things that can put a smile on my face
& as the blood trickles down my wrist I remember
That I DID serve a purpose…& that was to be with you
But it dawned on me…How can someone that isn’t happy
With themselves make anyone else happy
& then it didn’t matter…I didn’t need logic…or science
Just you & I realize it was all a huge
MISTAKE

As I’m dragging the rusty blade across my pale skin
My phone vibrates against my thigh… its you rescuing me
The 1st word out of your mouth are “I love you” & then
I remember its not worth it There’s a REASON
& I try to continue…But believe it or not, you have power
It’s only when your not around that I succumb to the
Calls of my deadly vice… but then you make me smile
& that’s when I realize it was all a huge
MISTAKE

We had a fight….
As I’m dragging the rusty blade across my pale skin
I lose control…I cut my chest, my hands, my legs
This time your not there to be my hero…to be my savior
To make me happy again… IT feels better than ever,
A punishment for having made you SO angry…
Something strange happens
The vibrations again…Its you….but its too late…
The damage is D O N E
&& Now that you’re back in my grasp…
Is when I realize that it was all a huge
MISTAKE

Now when we lay 2gether you don’t see my scars
They’ve gotten better…But I thought u should know
It was YOU that saved me almost every time…
& I’ve done some wrong things in my life
But if I ever lost you it wouldn’t take long
To realize that I must’ve made a huge
MISTAKE