Found In The Middle Of Nowhere

I've found myself torn
between confused and unknown
The past now uncanning
The future untold

Indulgence still wanted
while secrecy is obtained
I long to be out there in
Sun shine or rain

My freedom is held captive
In the heart of my master
My love is being taken
First slow but soon Faster

Taken and hidden
To the point that i can't give
Finding reasons for love
When theres no life to live

Many years in a mess hall
I"ve learned to call home
Living with family yet still
Somehow being alone

Curiosity surrounding me
My patience reached an end
I long to find someone
A lover and/or friend

Satifaction is near
It is sensed in my heart
But now that i'm happy
Things around me begin to fall apart

I begin to die internally
But i was then filled with bliss
His heart surrounded mine
So i sealed with a kiss

With that sealed kiss
Came a world of my own
While reality began shrinking
This world became well grown

In a constant drift
From dimension to dimension
I find myself drowning
In his sweet satisfaction

Not knowing wat to expect
Causing a rush of adrenaline
The world keeps on telling me
I'm falling in love with him

A lifetime full
Of confusion and sorrow
Why question happiness
When you could die tomorrow?

Why question love
As a reason for laugter
For life can be as bright as the sun
Or as dark as a black panther

Living in an alternate universe
Where things remain perfect
Not knowing to live or love
Not knowing if its worth it

I found myself torn
Between here and there
He found me too
In the middle of nowhere