I am SO sleepy. I can't sleep!!!! I would kill to be dreaming right now. But instead i'm up thinking about what there is to drink in the fridge. I slept alittle earlier today. If i do ever get sleep i can't stay sleeping for more than 45 minutes so whats the fucking point! I'm so sleepy. It's making me angry. I go to school bitter then I put on a pretty little smile and hide behind eye liner and mascara. BOOM..everybody thinks i'm awake. Luna is the life of the fucking party. She laughs, chats and moves around like any other normal teen when in reality i'm not even alive. I consider myself a vampire. Thats what the fuck i feel like. I feel undead. I am so sleepy..this is me ranting.. I"m so ridiculously sleepy and i CANT FALL ASLEEP. I'm so done. If it were up to me i'd like collapse right now. For my own sick twisted pleasure i'm talking to some guy that wants to fuck me he thinks i wanna fuck him back when in reality i just wished he'd forget i exsisted. I"m so fucking sleepy. My stomach itches and i have probaly been scratching for the past 20 minutes just staring at mii bed waiting to get alittle bit sleepy. My eyes won't budge, My mind, and body are not coordinating properly together. If i could justt close my eyes and begin to dream it wouldn't be a problem. Maybe i need to cry. Oh right i did that already today when i was on thephone with my boyfriend wondering wether or not he wants to even be with me. SO crying is not the answer. My back hurts...i've been slouching half the time i've been typing this becasue my shitty computer chair doesn't have a back since everybody that lives in my house is a savage. I'm so sleepy and tommorow when i have the perfect oppurtunity to "fall" asleep i'm going to have all the energy in the world. Earlier today i walked into a bar did a cartwheel and then jumped on the table and flashed....I could've been sleeping!!The only time i fall asleep is when i'm with my boyfriend...He hugs me and i just wanna dream...WHERE THE FUCK IS HE WHEN I NEED HIM?
I am SO FUCKING SLEEPY... BUT I can't sleep. I"m thirsy and I haven't slept in aobut 97 hours. Earlier 2day i couldn't pronounce the word photography but i was screaming the lyrics to the song "Bump n Grind" By: R.Kelly.
I daydream more often now that i don't sleep. Lemme just say i've never typed faster in my life. I think the lacking of astral projection is causing an increase in imagination hence all this extra daydreaming because not once did i ever daydream about magikal dancing giant marshmallows (WIERD) i'm always sleepy & i'm always hungry...I think i'm hungry but i'll just be thirsty. Thats why I think i'm a vampire.
I am so sleepy. I bet you didint' know that i was still scratching my stomach. it really itches i thinkit's the shitty bra i have on that i ususally wear to go to sleep. I'm going to get somthing to drink then stare at the cieling and scratch my stomach and just pray to god that i fall asleep before my alarm goes off!!!
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment